Okay being single and living by myself I have way too much time to just think. Today my thoughts have traveled back to an age old question that has been looming for many years. What is it about me that guys won't ask me out?? I really want to take a poll of all the men I know and see what they have to say about this question. I always end up being the good friend and nothing more. Why is that?? Is there something wrong with me??
I think this is a question that almost everyone struggles with at some point. I just want to know. My curious nature can hardly stand it. Okay I can understand the last 5 years of my life, I have been extremely over weight and because of that my self confidence level has been low. But I have dropped 60 pounds this year and the out look hasn't' changed. My self confidence is high and yet I am still falling into the same old trap. I just don't get it.
Not that anyone out there can give me any incite I just needed to vent for a moment. I know there are other people out there who feel the same way. Then again I look at this looming question as a way that God is protecting me. I do tend to get attached a little too easily when I am in a relationship. I think God is helping to guard my heart for the man I am going to marry. Having so many guy friends has allowed me to see qualities I want and don't want in my future husband. It is just so hard to wait. I am so completely in love with my future husband and it is painful at times to not be with him and especially to not know who he is or where he is.
"Your Maker is your husband, the Lord almighty is His name"
Isaiah 54:5
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