So you know one thing about being single and living alone means that you have plenty of time to think by yourself. Strangely enough I have found that I rather enjoy these moments. I was always afraid that I wouldn't like living alone, now I almost would rather it be that way.
Anyway tonight my pondering led me down a road which I have traveled many times. I think that any single person has traveled this road as well. The road of "who am I going to marry." Have I met him already? Is he younger? Is he older? Where is he right now? Is he someone I already know? Is it my best guy friend? No it can't possibly be him! Or could it?
And in this pondering it brings me to internet dating. I could see where it opens up more possibilities to having contact with people but in the experiences I have had with the subject there is much lacking. Yes I may be able to "get to know" someone by chatting with them or talking with them on the phone but lets get real. You don't really know them until you have been with him during the "Big Game" or seen him interacting with his friends. And when you truly get to know what a person is like you watch them with little kids. If I meet someone on the internet they would have to be in my area, which is highly unlikely since I don't live in a major American city. They would also have to pass much more intense "background check" than anyone I already know that could possibly become more than a friend.
I guess really this all leads to the fact that in this high tech world I am still just old fashioned at heart. I want the boy to fall for me and chase me. I want him to at least attempt to sweep me off my feet because he has found I am of value. I want his value in me to come from seeing me with my friends, my family, and my kids at school. I want him to know who I am and how I tick, not just "I think she's hot maybe I should ask her out." Come on guys I mean really, I think every girl, deep down in her heart of hearts just wants to be thought of as a person of value. Someone that is loved for who she is not what she looks like or her job. She wants someone to love her just because she is.
I know that my "fairy tale" I have dreamed up in my head will never come true. Let's face it there is no perfect guy out there no matter how hard they try. Though they are mighty cute trying. But I do know the only person who can love me for who I am, take me as I am, unshaven legs and all, and make me the happiest bride ever. That person is Jesus Christ. Everyday when I wake up he is showing me more and more of who he is. He created this world for us to enjoy, it is a gift of love for his most beloved creation, man. Friday morning I awoke to the most beautiful sunrise of orange and purple and I knew it was a gift, something straight from God's heart to remind me, remind us, of how much he loves us. All over his word he tells us that he is in love with us and cares for us. All he wants in return is for us to love him and bring him Glory. And everyday I am glad to serve him because I know beyond a shadow of a doubt I am loved. I am caught up in the greatest love story ever written and nothing can ever compare with that.
"For your maker is your husband - the Lord Almighty is his name - the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer; he is called the God of all the earth."
Isaiah 54:5
1 comment:
I just stopped by your blog and noticed you had put something up about your experiences with internet dating. I read it, fealt a twinge of guilt, and decided I owe you an apology. I stopped talking to you, but never gave you a reason, and that was quite the jerk of me. Here's my reason...there was a girl that I dated some late 2005, we both really liked each other, but she was moving to Florida to work for a while. Things were left open between us, and long story short, she's back and we're seeing each other. I should have had the decency to tell you, so I'm sorry. But anyways, good luck in your search! Some guy will open his eyes and realize what a great catch you are. It was fun talking to you,
Chris
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