Right now I am in a kind of a funk. Every year I hit this period of time when being single just really stinks. And for some reason it is always in the spring. I guess because it is "wedding season" and that seems to be what everyone is talking about. Right now for most of my friends it is "baby season" which in some ways is even worse because they seem to have "everything" I desire.
It doesn't help matters when I have hit a point where I hate the whole dating scene. I don't like drama and it seems that is what my dating life has all been about. At the same time I want to be married and have my own family. This is a desire that I have had for so long and it only grows stronger as I get older.
Do you think it is possible that God can just make him appear out of thin air and avoid all the other drama in the process? It is not like I want to get married tomorrow or even in the next year, I just want to have a relationship that will last longer than a week!
I know that everything is in God's hands and his timing is perfect. Every person he has brought into my life has been there for a reason, no matter how short that time span may have been. I know that beyond a shadow of a doubt I am loved with a passionate love that this world can never equal. And Above all else I want God's best for my life so that He may be most glorified through me.
But in this moment I just want to know how to remind my heart of these things. It seems to have lost a bit of hope right now.
P.S. Can it be called a Lament when you are grieving over something you never had in the first place?
4 comments:
Those are tough rhetorical questions, Kelly, have you tried wikipedia? They know everything, in any language too. Ok, I'm kidding.
BTW please give a listen to my latest song (but I didn't write it, it's a poem by a friend) titled "Maafkan Ku" (My Sorrow), in Malayo-Polynesian language. It's just a rough draft, and very imperfect, but it matched feelings inside with music. It's at my MySpace site (via my blog), along with Wings, Prayers and Teddy Bears and Synthetic Symphonic Synergy.
But I dunno nuttin' bout no Lament 'cept
it can be permutated into mentaL, which is probably not the most helpful information you have ever heard. Alas!
All the best and Peace bless
Dave (aka Daud)
MentaL seems to be an accurate word to discribe how I feel. So if you look at it that way, Lament is the perfect word to use.
alcohol helps.
hahahah
not really
hang in there girl. Like I mentioned tonight, Moses spent 40 years in the desert before he reached his plan in life...
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