Grains of Wisdom

I have kept a prayer journal since I was a freshman in college. It has been a great tool to help me stay focused in my prayer life. But more than that it has been amazing to be able to look back over the years and see where God has guided me. I can see exactly what my hearts desire was at that point in my life. It is a record of all my ups and downs. My leaps of faith and my missteps. My times of rejoicing and my times of heartache. It is a record of who I really am.

When I reach the end of a Journal I always take the time to read over what I had written. Just to see what has happened. To rejoice in the prayers God has so graciously answered and even those that still go unanswered. It is typically a 6 month cross section of my life.

Yesterday was one of those days. I came to the end of my journal and spent about and hour and a half reading through my life. During this time I came across little grains of wisdom that I know came from God. One those really stuck out to me and I felt like I should share it with you.

Just to give you a little context this was written back in October and I had been having a very rough week. I was dealing with some emotional struggles that had really brought me down. I was crying out to God but in the same breath I was comforted by the fact that He is in control even though I felt so out of control.

"I don't see the big picture and you do. Maybe this is just a dark accent in a painting of amazing vibrant and brilliant colors. You know billiant colors always pop on black accents. Soon you will be changing colors because a new chapter will begin. This darkness is only there to make the new color shine brighter."

The great part is that the color did change. Though I have had several dark accents in the last 6 months there have also been many bright and vibrant colors as well. Right now I thinking it is a light blue, not extremely brilliant but very clam and peaceful. God truly is the master designer and He does see the big picture when I can only see the shade he happens to be painting with at that moment.