Questions??

I always hated it when teachers would say that there were no stupid questions. I know they were just trying to make everyone comfortable, but quite frankly there are stupid questions. On the flip side, however, there are some amazing questions. Some questions seem to have no answer. Other questions lead to even more questions. And sometimes a question can lead to an extraordinary answer that can change the way we look at the world.

For some reason I seem to be stuck in that hazy limbo of being so full of questions and yet not getting any answers. My questions range anywhere from "Are my pants clean?" to "Should I look into buying a house?" or as complicated as "Is there only one perfect person out there for us to marry? And if there is what happens if they choose to marry someone else?"

Some of my questions are just fleeting thoughts and I don't really need an answer and others I have pondered on for what seems like years and haven't gotten any closer to figuring it out. When I have all these questions I tend to feel like a failure. I have this idea of what I am supposed to be all set up in my mind and yet I don't seem to achieve that. I fall short every single time. In reality everything I think I know honestly means nothing.

It is at these times I am most grateful for an amazing God who loves me no matter how fuzzy my brain my seem. That even when I don't know any answers, He has it all under control. Even when I start to doubt Him and what He is doing or choosing not to do in my life, I know that I can trust Him 100%. I may feel like I am just floating out in a sea of mist yet when I stop and look my feet are firmly planted in God's truth and Love. And apart from Him I know nothing and anything I do know means nothing without Him.

We were never told that this would be an easy road to walk. In fact over and over again we are told the opposite. Which makes since because we may be in this world but we are not part of this world. Our home is not this earthy dwelling made of stone and wood but it is a heavenly kingdom that we anxiously await.

The best part is God doesn't mind our questions. He may not always give us the answers when we want them. And the answer isn't always want to hear. However, I can stand strong in the faith of knowing that even though the burdens and questions God is working everything for the good of those who love Him.