Crazy Busy!!!

The older I become it seems the busier I get. Almost every night of the week I have something on my calender. Which in someways I don't mind, being the extrovert that I am I love to be with people. But in others it just stinks, like the fact that I have seen Jeremy for the total of an hour and a half in the last 7 days and still won't get to see him until Friday night. With all the busyness I am amazed I can keep up with anything, of course I am not the most organized person in the world. Just this morning I was having a heck of a time trying to find my shoes and still have no clue what I did with my school key yesterday.

I began pondering all of this busyness and wondering exactly what God thinks of it all. I would say the things that I do are good; my job, church, watching the kids for the Lifesource class, Bible Study, and building relationships with those around me. I think that God puts me in these places to teach me things and to affect the lives of others around me. Yet, at the same time, I get so exhausted by "doing" all the time that I forget about "being."

I don't take the time to stop and just be with God. Just to sit down and spend time with him one and one and have a conversation. I know that a relationship just dies if you don't spend time with a person but for some reason I just think that magically my relationship with Christ is put on hold until the next time I talk to Him or worse I think some how I can grow closer to him even though the only time I do spend with Him happens to be in corporate worship and even then I am halfway distracted by what is going on.

I think I need to simplify my life and yet I don't know where I can do that. I guess really I just need to stop wasting time. Like today I had two hours in between getting off work and going to Bible Study. That was plenty of time to sit down and hang out with God. Yet, I only managed to read two chapters in my bible and then fell asleep for 30 minutes.

I know that I am not the only one in this world that has this problem. Getting our priorities straight can be such a battle. And I hate that it always seems that God gets the "leftovers" of my time. I have to "fit" Him into my schedule somewhere at a time that is most convenient for me. That just seems wrong, but at the same time if I don't find that time it will be even worse.