Sunday Lunch

I finally did it. I took myself out to lunch today all by myself. I have to admit it has taken me some time to get up the nerve to actually do it. I mean what do you do during that period when you have ordered but your food hasn't come? And who knows what others might think of a girl eating lunch on Sunday alone. And isn't it hard enough to be around families at church (especially when you are one of the very few single people there) then you go and place yourself in front of more families eating together. But I did it and you know it wasn't so bad after all. I do admit I think the waitress felt a little sorry for me but she paid extra close attention to me so my glass was never empty. My food seemed to come more quickly than usual as well. And during the down time before the food I was able to really listen and watch the people around me.

Sunday lunch is a very interesting time, my church gets out early so I was able to catch the "we slept in and need to hurry before the church people come" crowd. Most of them looked like they just rolled out of bed. They soon file out about noon. But around 12:30 the interesting crowd rolls in dressed to the nines making sure everyone knows they went to church this morning. Sitting there and watching everyone interact and listing in on the random spurts of conversation you learn quite a bit about the stranger sitting close to you. Watching these people make me reflect on what it really means to be a Christian. You never know when the person in the booth next to you might be listening in, how are you representing Christ everyday of your life even in those places you think no one else is paying attention. (Like in jamming in your car as you ricde down the road.) It doesn't matter if you wore your best clothes to church that day what really matters is how you treated the waitress even if your order wasn't quite right.

During this time I also was able to admire the invention of the bendy straw. For someone like me who tends to spill their drink even with a straw the bendy straw is wonderful. I think all resturants should carry them. They make drinking much more convient.

Even though I almost chickened out, God was with me and sat right beside me. Being single and trying to live a holy life can be very difficult at times, like today when our missions team went down to the front to be prayed over and I had no family there to pray over me I almost cried. Yet another time my singleness seemed to stand out to the whole world. Sometimes I feel like there is a giant sign over my head that says "Single." And yet I think I was the only one who noticed. Of course this time in my life has been rewarding as well. I have time to do what I want, when I want. I have also been able to spend more time searching the heart of God and getting to know Him better. And because of that I am getting to know myself better as well.

My desire for a husband and family doesn't get less but I am learning how to wait on the Lord. For now I will leave you with one of my favorite verses.

"Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4

The key is to Delight yourself in the Lord and his desires will soon be your desires.