Life Changing

I just returned from a mission trip to Honduras. I have been on many trips before but I believe this one was very special. I wasn't as affected by the work we were doing or the people we were helping, as I was by God's goodness.

The mountains were magnificent and the people were beautiful. I just stood there many times in awe and amazement. God has created so many things and they all bring him glory in their own way. Even in off key singing and no steady beat clapping God is glorified.

We worked hard both physically and mentally. Every morning we would go and dig a water line or lay a concrete floor in a house. Of course this is all done by hand. But just to see the faces of the people and to have a chance to interact with them was worth every aching muscle. Then in the afternoons we would go and do a bible school for the children. Dirty faces and all those children were beautiful. They were always smiling and even though we couldn't understand each other (No habla Espanol) we still had a connection.

As soon as I set foot in Honduras I felt like I was home. God gave me a great since of peace and comfort. I don't speak the language and I had never been there before but there was something familiar and comforting about it. During the week God began to reveal many things to me, some I will choose to share and others I will not. But through it all God is teaching me patience.

There were so many moments in Honduras that my heart yearned for my future husband. Like the evening I was sitting on the porch, the stars were shining, and off in the distance there was a great lighting storm. My desire was to have my husbands arms around me making me feel safe and warm in that moment, but instead God put his arms around me and told me to be patient. God once again reassured me that he has a plan and that it is the best he wants for me.

This morning as I was praying I felt compelled to read Psalm 130. I love how God knows just what we need and when we listen he whispers it in our ear. This is what I read.

"I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in His word I put my hope. My soul waits for the Lord more than watchment wait for the morning, more than watchment wait for the morning."
Psalm 130: 5-6

My hope is found in God alone. Even now as I sit here alone I know that as difficult as this moment might be I am right where I am supposed to be. I will wait for the Lord, his timing is perfect. It is not easy and I spend many nights asking why, but I know without a doubt my God will never leave me or forsake me. If I am delighting in Him then he will give me the desires of my heart. And next to seeing his name glorified through all of the earth is my desire to have a husband.