Burning Bridges

Well today the person I would say has been my closest friend for the last 2 years completely cut me out of her life. I was supposed to be her maid of honor in her wedding that is coming in January. However today she informed me she doesn't want me in her wedding at all. She said that I haven't been supportive or excited enough for her and that is what she thinks all of her bridesmaids should be. Well you know what, I can only hit my head against a brick wall so many times before I just give up. She is the one that pushed me away as soon as she started dating him. One day we were doing everything together the next day I never saw her anymore. I could hardly even catch her on the phone. And anytime we did hang out there was always a weird vibe, like she would rather be with him then spending time with me. I understand that she wanted to be with him, but to cut me out and then be mad at me is just crazy. And it is not that she cut me out of the wedding that bothers me the most, it is that she had to write it in a letter she couldn't even call me on the phone to tell me this.

So I called, even though I knew she wouldn't answer. I told her that she really hurt me and that I wasn't mad. I left it open for her to call me if she wants to talk but I can almost guarantee that I will never see or hear from her again. It really hurts to be stepped on and crushed like this, to have trusted someone so completely and they turn around and squash you like a bug. This is where my test of faith comes in, I still love her and if she ever needs anything I will be there for her. I have done this and worse to God many times over and he always forgives me and is there to pick me up off the ground. I know that no matter what happens God's hand is in it all.