What We Need When We Need It

It always amazes me how God gives us what we need right when we need it. I have talked about the bible study on Joseph we have been doing this fall at my small group. They have been talking about dreams and waiting on God for those dreams to be fulfilled even when we think he may have forgotten. This week however the study took a little turn. It was about forgiveness and reconciliation. This really hit home for me after what happened with one of my closest friends this last week. It was talking about how true reconciliation can not happen without forgiveness from both parties. Also it can not happen if both parties are not willing to put things behind them and really make an attempt at reconciling.

I miss my dear friend greatly and it pains me that our relationship has come to this point. I know some of the blame is put on myself because I allowed her to pull away and yet at the same time you can't make someone be your friend. I have forgiven her and I even wrote her a letter, since she won't return my phone calls, say that I forgive her and that if she wants to and that it is her decision to back away from our friendship. But I will always love her and if she ever needs me she knows how to find me.

God amazes me! He shows us his mercy new every day. I can't even imagine how many times I have broken his heart by my words and actions. Yet he is always there when I call and always forgives me when I ask for it. He has never left me with the many times I have betrayed him. I need to have that same mind set and attitude with my other relationships as well. Not that I am a mat to be walked over but I am a shoulder to cry on. I am a support system even if they choose to turn away from my friendship.