Hindsight is 20/20

Sometimes we cannot fully appreciate a situation until we look on it in retrospect. Last night was one of those situations for me.

Due to the fact that I have been stuck in the house for a few days, my roommates were both out of the house, and I have an odd craving for adventure right now, I wanted to get out of the house and do something new. But those of you who know me know that I don't like doing anything alone, especially new things.

So I was trying to convince a new guy friend of mine that we should meet up and do something. In the process I think I made him mad because I was being so pushy and he really didn't want to go out and do anything. And right now he is not returning any of my messages so I think he is still upset with me. So needless to say I got ticked off and just stayed at home and watched movies until 3 in the morning.

Having all that time to myself made me realize that it was probably much safer for me to stay at home then to go out last night. I don't know if it is because I have been in the house too long, the fact yesterday was the full moon, the fact that "my little friend" is about to visit, or a combination of both, but my normally careful and cautious nature seemed to be thrown out the door. I have a feeling God was watching out for me because with the attitude I had yesterday I was almost guaranteed to have done something I would regret later.

I guess in a way I did do something I now regret even with out leaving the house. I was rude and pushy when I normally am not. I just wanted my way and got mad when someone didn't give it to me. I guess I need to stop taking lessons from my kindergartners on how to treat people. I didn't act much like an adult last night. And worst of all I didn't act much like a lover of Christ either.