Today I have decided that I would rather be the dumpee instead of the dumper. Most people would probably disagree with me but here are my reasons for thinking such a thing.
1)I have a hard time knowing that someone is upset with me or that I have done something to hurt someone's feelings. I want to fix the problem, and yet I am the cause of it.
2)I can forgive someone else for hurting me much easier than I can forgive myself for hurting someone else.
3)If someone breaks up with me I have someone else to blame for this sick feeling I have in my stomach.
4)I have this insatiable need to know that the other person is going to be alright. If they break up with me then I am confident of that, however if I break up with them, unless they feel the need to say something to me, I may never truly know if they are alright or not.
So really I am a big push over. I think God has given me such a compassionate heart for a reason and it is a good thing. Yet, on days like today I wish that I could just suck it up, say what's done is done, move on, and not have to worry about whether he is upset or hurt.
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