Not My Week!!!

This has not been my week. I guess the good news is that the only place to go from here is up! It all started last Friday with my poison ivy getting worse and worse. So I finally broke down and went to the doctor, after hunting for an hour to see if my insurance would still cover it since I changed companies this year. I got a wonderful shot that cleared that up but I wasn't real happy.

Then that afternoon when I went to get my key to my apartment and sign the lease. I start getting everything filled out and the lady gets to the part in the lease about pets and tells me that there are no pets allowed. I look at her with this look of total surprise. She says "I didn't tell you about that?" Of course not why would I say something now if you didn't tell me then. So she calls over to the other section of the same apartment complex, where they allow pets, and finds me an apartment over there. So I call the water and electric company to get everything changed, and they mention that the utilities are still in someone elses name, but the manager swears the apartment is empty. I go through all the paper work which has now taken an hour and a half and caused me to miss my end of the year staff party. We get everything squared away and I go to check out the apartment. There is still all of the former tenants stuff there, they haven't moved out at all!!! By this point I am totally stressed and start crying. So I go back to the office and explain and they give me a new apartment, but of course I can't call the electric and water companies again because it is now after hours on a Friday!!

So Saturday I work all day getting my stuff moved, and really that went off without a hitch thanks to the smarts of getting movers to move all the big stuff and my family helping with the rest. Though of course we were sweating to death because at the old house the AC had gone out on Thursday!

Sunday I went with Jeremy to the Crater of Diamonds State Park and dug for diamonds. We had a great time there digging and the weather was actually pretty nice so all in all that was a great day, until I found out what I know today that is. More on that in a minute.

Monday, I ended up spending 3 hours finishing packing my classroom so that all my stuff can be stored for next year. If I never see another box or packing tape again it will be too soon! After school went back to the old house to clean up and gather the last few things. I was soooo hot and then the belt on the vacuum broke. So Jeremy helped me fix that and we hauled stuff back here. In the process I slammed one of my fingers in the car door which still hurts right now.

Then came today! The icing on the cake and the reason Sunday has now ended up being not such a fond memory. I got my Internet connected again today, which has been disconnected since Friday. I went on and was checking all of my e-mails, blogs, and my facebook and myspace pages. Well, I was wondering around and noticed something weird. My friend Jeremy had put that he was in a relationship with some other girl. Now you have to understand that Jeremy and I have been dating off and on for the last 9 months and playing this whole friends game, and right now we were considering ourselves just friends, however it has always been more that just friends. So I ask him about it and he avoids the question until I finally press him. So then he lets me know that yes in fact he is dating someone else. Though he spent the entire weekend with me, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday, he didn't ever once mention this. We even spent 8 hours in the car alone on Sunday and joked about people he has dated, and he never says a word. Instead he decided to put it on his Facebook page and wait for me to find out that way. He is a total Jerk! The real kicker is that just 3 weeks ago we had a conversation about why we weren't in a relationship. His exact words were "I feel like I really need to pursue the purpose God has for me, he has been laying it on my heart hear lately. For the last several years I have been pursuing what I want but I need to focus on what God wants. When I am in a relationship I just focus on that and not on anything else so I can't be in a relationship right now." Then I turn around and find out that not a week later he is in a relationship with this other chick!!!! But he waits 2 weeks to tell me! Not only that but he still wants to hang out all the time and not have anything change between us. He swears nothing will change. I don't know what planet he is living on but this changes everything!!!! Then after all this mess he has the gall to tell me he thinks this is God's Will.

Who am I to argue, maybe it is God's will but right now I am totally ticked at the boy, so upset that I can't sleep, and not appreciating that he couldn't be honest with me in the first place.

I know everything is in God's hands. I am so thankful for my friends and family who all love and support me. It was so nice to talk with my daddy tonight and then he prayed with me. I will get over this soon enough. I am just getting so tired of this whole dating game. I just want to get married and have kids, why must so much heartache come along with that desire. I guess in a way I am more mad at myself than anything for letting him back into my heart and trusting him again after how he hurt me last November. Maybe I will learn my lesson, but then again maybe not, I am a trusting person and with that comes heartache on occasion. Though I suppose a moment of heartache is better than a life time of trusting no one.

I was joking with my brother that maybe this will help get me motivated to lose this 30 pounds that I have gained over the last year :) I guess it won't be all bad!